I did meet him the following week. It was absolutely lovely, and much longer than expected. We’ve even mailed a few times since. I should really be happy now and in a way I am. He did call me a friend again, which was one of the best moments ever. It is just so important to me.
I still don’t have my computer back, but I’m still hoping for the best. If only I could trust that everything will be, or rather remain, all right. Maybe even more than just all right.
I got an answer. He even thanked me for writing back so quickly. Agreed on meeting next week. Hopefully. Had to seek some advice. The person was amazed at the rounds I was going in not letting him know how I really feel. I have a feeling the friendship is going backwards, if it had ever been one. I don’t want to have to beg. He once told me to stop being sorry. I still don’t know what to think of all this.
My data might be lost for good. S***. I need to look forward not back, literally, in general.
