Good thing that nothing really ever gets lost on WordPress (or is it?). Here is the original post of seven weeks ago that I thought was gone, since I didn’t have time to press the “publish button”. Thanks for auto-saving.
I have seen him today. It was lovely, but as I thought I didn’t have the courage to ask him for another private meeting. I will see him – hopefully – in six weeks and will definitely ask then, because I need something to look forward to. Even the six coming weeks seem like an incredibly, unbearably long time. I think I got slightly drunk. I called S. and asked him to remind me not to be so hard on myself tomorrow. I learned that he had had an accident even before our last time. I does explain a lot. I was stupid enough to ask him to answer my mails, even though he did answer the last one. They drove me across town so I had an easier time getting where I needed to go, but they professed that they weren’t going out of their way. Again, I should be so thankful for all that. I’ll write a quick mail thanking them again and saying that I got home alright (If that is ever the case), maybe apologising just quickly for scolding him unneccessarily. Turns out someone else was not ignorant of me after all. Sounds a bit like a horoscope with me trying to avoid all names, but it is necessary.
